The Dirty 30 =o_O=

I can not believe I am going to be 30 in less than two months! It seems like it has only been a couple years since I turned 23. It sounds scary; 30. I must say, as old as it seemed (before I was 27) is not as old as 30 feels and looks. Maybe I tell myself that because I am in a cold case of denial.

I catch myself in the club watching the "fresh 20's" dancing and prancing around, and thinking to myself: They will be older soon and won't be parading all around here all young and careless. I agree, yes I am a Hater! I'm a bitter 30 year old (to be).

All the negative and sorrow aside, I have been happy with the mental, spiritual, and (some) physical side effects of reaching the dirty 30. I noticed the past 6 months have been a struggle between am I responsible enough? Am I on the right track? Am I where I should be? The pressure lies in not being married, being a single parent, not being in a serious relationship, and not even owning a home yet =/. I have figured out these worries are normal and all part of natural growing pains. It would be abnormal to not have these worries on my mind (in my position).

So I have grown okay with turning 30. I love new experiences, and this I will take just as that: A New and Exciting passage in to another chapter of my life!